real post?
December 18, 2009
I am worn out from running around with my son in the rain all morning. But grocerys are put away and he is napping before his play date arrives. So i’mma attempt a real post this time.
The only time i’ve been able to remain eating disorder free was during my pregnancy with my son. He is going to be a year old in about 24 days. My husband has wanted a 2cd child for a few months now. And I thought hard about it and I think I am ready for another too. The thought of carrying another baby has me wanting to eat healthy and do good. And I have. I’m on prenatals, cutting back caffine, no drinking, eating at least 1 decent meal a day right now –I know that will increase once I actually am pregnant. We started try to concieve December 2cd. since then I have been ED free and I only drank on our anniversary and that was becuase I was on my period and I knew for a fact I wasnt pregnant.
We are buying a house in Febuary. It will prolly be March or after before we actually “have” a house. The searching and process is long. but we will have the money for the 20 percent down and all the deposits starting in Febuary.
I have been trying to put my focus back onto God. Getting back in prayer and a better state of mind. I want the best I can give for my family and only the Lord can guide me through all of the steps needing to be taken in my journey.
I bought my son his first trainning potty today. Gonna start introducing it and seeing where his stand point is on understanding it.
Well, that was a longer post then i’ve been able to type out lately. It will do for now.
Well, congrats on everything
Having at least one meal a day is a very good step. &It’s really good that you realize that with a pregnancy, you’ve got a srcond body in you&you cannot jeapordize that.. Good for you 
I don’t know if that’s something I would be able to do. Goodluck with the house hunting, hehe, I’m starting my appartment hunting very soon, pretty exited!
Keep your head up
its been about 22 mins since i woke up and ive downed almost 17 ox of water.. my tummy is killing me and i got alot to do today.. running after kids and such.. we have come to an idea that gives me and adam hope.. he gave me a uti.. a bad one at that but still he had to cum in me to do it!! bc he’s never done that b4 so that gives us hope! ive been trying to get closer to god also.. ive been praying everynight and trying to turn my cuss o meter off.. which is hard.. but its nice knowing that you doing ok.. im praying for your son hoping he gets better and the house and the babydust is flying your way <3 love you i gotta stand up and go take a shower..
believe me its not just about you its everyone.. and its not that i just flat out dont care its just it hurts me so much to see everyone with their miracles that i cant have.. and when i get in these moods i just want to stay away from all of that.. but i cant when everyone has their kids posted everywhere i love cafemom but even on there its “i got my bfp” and im sure when i have a kid im gonna be just as talkative about him/her as everyone else.. and sometimes it doesnt bother me.. but other days it does.. in the past week.. ive found out you, angel, and tim (tiffs bro) are gonna be parents (for you and angel; again) so for a lil while im gonna be in pain and im gonna be sad until i can get over the shock im not gonna be getting on the internet as much bc i dont wanna deal with it.. i cant let my self show too much agony bc it effects adam.. and makes him feel bad and starts worrying if im gonna divorce him.. and i dont need him thinking that.. i love you and i love landon just like i love bryans kids.. but right nows not a good time for me to be around kids.. im sorry if my post affended you i just needed to say somethings..