Pregnant.

My Husband and I are expecting our second baby. Our 1st will be 22 months old when this new one is born. I think it’s a good age. Its heard that when they are closer in age, they tend to get along better throughout life. etc. And be better friends. We are hoping for another boy. But either way would be another amazing blessing. I’m a little over 1 month pregnant right now. Due in early November. Our 1st born is off a bottle now. And i’m cracking  down on the potty trainning. He’s had a potty for almost 2 months now and i’ve been associating it when I go to the bathroom etc but I havnt put much effort into it. But I am now. I want him at least partically trainned when the next one arrives. I want him fully trainned a few months later. (when he’s over 2yrs)

I cant stand seeing 3+ year olds  that arent trainned. no since in it. They at the least need to be out of a diaper during the day. alot of kids have bed wetting problems though. And thats hard to train away from. They kinda have to decide on their own with that.

But i’m gotta run.

boring title for a boring post

so, i dont have much to write about right now. Me and my husband and son are really enjoying our new place. Tax money came in and we got some household things we needed, washer and dryer, a new bed for me and hubby, a better TV, vacuum and other little random things you dont think of when you first move out. We put 1000 straight to savings and paid off a credit card bill and some medical bills. and we owed a family member a little money so we took care of that. And the damage deposit we owed at our townhome is paid for. Besides that 1000 in savings for Landon or an emergancy. We still have 800 dollars  floating in our checkings account. theres a few more household things we need but were putting off to see how much the big things like our bed and washer, etc would be and we got some good deals and are pleased with the extra money.

besides that, i’ve been cooking alot since moving and getting good at it. lol But i’m gainning so much weight cooking these manly meals for my boys. Its yummy but i’m seeing the effects of it on myself now. Im just trying to keep in mind that we are TTC and I dont need to concieve on diet pills or starved. I could do damage to my child before I even know i’m pregnant to prevent it.

Helping Haiti

so, I kinda felt inspired after some reading i’ve been doing to write a blog about my thoughts on Haiti and our United States. People are getting mad in the united states b/c we are giving Haiti all this money. And i’m not sayin that I completely agree with all the money we  are giving b/c US is no doubt in dept by more money then we might ever have again. BUT thats no reason why US people can not donate if they wish, weither it be money, caned foods, clothes, health care needs, etc.

For one… WE DO NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF POVERTY! When you are “poor” here, you have the project housing, and section H housing, you have food stamps, you have assistance! Haiti poverty does not have food stamps! They are lucky to have a cow that month to kill for food, Have YOU ever had to kill for your food to make sure your family is fed?  no we go buy stuf at our local grocery store with our FREE food stamps. And we may think the projects are bad but to most of Haiti, our projects are like our beverly hills! The projects have firm housing that must meet standard building regulations. (haiti doesnt have regulations, most of their poverty lives in a wood, or cerment block with a dirt floor and cover drapped over the top for a ceiling!). Much less RUNNING WATER in their “home”. and their water are far  from filtered and simi cleaned before its ran threw our sinks and bath tubs and toliets. Their water is considered clean when its a light brown in color! So come on idiots! DO NOT talk bad about people who want to help a lower country.

People in the US are walking around saying they are poor but they go home to a firm house, and usually have  a car, might not meet our perfect standards but at least you have a car. Often you will complain as you are on the INTERNET at your house! If you got internet, you are NOT poor, or TV or ANY electronics at ALL. Yes their are homeless but it makes me sick to see b/c I want to put them in my car and drive then to our local Center of Hope b/c they take in homeless and find them work and feed them and put clothes on their backs. In the US there IS hope for the homeless. you just have to WANT it. and not be a lazy ass that just likes to beg for money and get pitty.

Also we have checks for people who were hurts at work or who are handicapped our disabled, we have SSI and all kinda unemployment checks, free money that are met to help you in tough time that people take advantage of and LIVE off of for years which come from hard working peoples tax and pay checks!
I could go on and on with this but I have things to do.

New home.

We moved. We live in a nice little townhouse in a local town. We are around 20 minutes from where we used to live. But we are right in town now and close to everything. Me and my hubby only used a quarter tank gas all week! His work is right up the road as well.  Hubby got a raise at work. He is bringing in over 100 more dollars a week then before. And now since becoming a supervisor he gets 30 mins of over time every work day now, b/c he has to go in early. And he makes over 20 dollars an hour on overtime. So things are looking up! He worked 11am in the morning til 2am at night one day this week! That was 7 hours over time! And he is working Saturday too! So this next check is gonna knock our the remaining deposit we owe and we will go ahead and pay Febuarys rent. Our tax returns are due to come Feb. 5th. We are getting 6,850 dollars back. thats gonna buy our king size bed, a dresser set, washer and dryer, pay off some bills we owe, and we are gonna spend around 900 on odd and end things we need at the house then 1,500 goes to savings.

Things are looking good. Now i’m just waiting for the storm clouds to gather in again. Things are too good to be true right now.

Sick.

My Son has Bronchitis. Had a doctors visit today. We just entered our 2cd month of TTC another baby. Still no pregnancy but i’m not complainning. It took 4 months for our first born.

We are moving at the end of this month. –well, we will have the money for it, We decided to just rent an appartment and sign a 1 yr lease then go from there bc we are dying to get out and get out NOW. We hope the application process for the appartments we like wont take long and if they even have openings. If not, we know of a complex that has many openings. BUT we hate the area and they are kept up poorly. It would be a last resort and we would only agree to a 6 month lease if we had to go their and wait on an opening in the ones in Oxford.

Our car died. We are borrowing a relatives extra car until we get our taxes in 2 weeks to buy another then move.

My son’s coughing now and i’m sure will wake. so gotta go

real post?

I am worn out from running around with my son in the rain all morning. But grocerys are put away and he is napping before his play date arrives. So i’mma attempt a real post this time.

The only time i’ve been able to remain eating disorder free was during my pregnancy with my son. He is going to be a year old in about 24 days. My husband has wanted a 2cd child for a few months now. And I thought hard about it and I think I am ready for another too. The thought of carrying another baby has me wanting to eat healthy and do good. And I have. I’m on prenatals, cutting back caffine, no drinking, eating at least 1 decent meal a day right now –I know that will increase once I actually am pregnant.  We started try to concieve December 2cd. since then I have been ED free and I only drank on our anniversary and that was becuase I was on my period and I knew for a fact I wasnt pregnant.

We are buying a house in Febuary. It will prolly be March or after before we actually “have” a house. The searching and process is long. but we will have the money for the 20 percent down and all the deposits starting in Febuary.

I have been trying to put my focus back onto God. Getting back in prayer and a better state of mind. I want the best I can give for my family and only the Lord can guide me through all of the steps needing to be taken in my journey.

I bought my son his first trainning potty today. Gonna start introducing it and seeing where his stand point is on understanding it.

Well, that was a longer post then i’ve been able to type out lately. It will do for now.

Wedding Anniversary

Me and my Husband have been married 2yrs as of today. and my Son will be a year old next month.

He just woke up so I guess thats all I have time to type.

My birthday.

I’m 21 yrs old today.

I havent had much chance for wordpress lately. Been beyond the normal busy with all the holiday stuff. My Son is pulling at my fussing so I guess I still dont have a chance yet for an update.

 

Birthday Card Tears.

Well, plans were wrong from my last post. The office called and said there was a miss understanding with the doctors schedule and I couldn’t come in. So its back to my Januaury appointment again until farther notice. Same for therapy. Ugh. Oh well I guess.

So… Yesterday I had 440 calories and today wasn’t as good. 750 calories. I took some laxitives just now right before I got in bed, so that will help some.

I’m typing from the WordPress Blackberry App on my phone because our internet provider has a “local outage” in our area. Probably won’t fix until daylight tomorrow.

My moms birthday is tomorrow. I’m taking my son and we are spending the day over there tomorrow. All I can think about is having to eat birthday cake, ehh.

Another thing bothering me is,lately I’ve kinda viewed each holiday or major event as if it could be my moms last. She has a lot of health issues and can’t even get out of bed most days. Won’t go into her medical history right now, but I will say that her doctor comfirmed that within a yrs time she has had over 40 mini strokes.

I’m so afraid of losing her. I was reading birthday cards in target about in tears bc I want her birthday to be special. I just have a gut feeling it might be her last one. Thinking that way is horrible but after all that’s going on, you can’t help but worry of the worst.

Appointment change.

Ok so, the Phychiatrist had someone cancel for tomorrow, I had been put at the top of the cancellation list. So I go tomorrow at 3pm. rather then in Januaury, I get to schedule a closer appointment with my therapist tomorrow too.  Thats good.